A lot of the people around me are those who I spend more time helping than anything else. There are a few friends who I would be friends with even if they never needed anything from me. I'm tired of being expected to do something for everyone. I know people need my help, but when do I get a break?
I'm so used to helping others that I don't even consider my own schedule anymore. I send more text messages that say "I'm here" (to pick people up) and answering favors than anything else.
I've reached my limit. I feel like I can't ask for help. I can't even ask others for a little bit of their time. I don't need to talk about my problems. I just need social interaction. I have a few friends that are also busy helping others or with their own agendas and I can't ask them to do what I always do for others to the point of hating it.
I keep telling myself to just suck it up. It'll be over soon enough. I'll get used to it again. I'm strong enough to deal with this. I always have dealt with it. Nothing has changed. I don't need the dog that I've wanted for so long so I could have something that would love me. Something that would be able to spend time with me and go on walks at the park with me whenever I'm free. I can do that alone, right?
You don't always have to be the strong one. "Thy friends do stand by thee." "Lean on my ample arm."
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I'm just now reading this one. 'Letta, don't ever let people take advantage of you. I feel bad even asking you to feed the dog! You are an independent woman; do what YOU want to do. It is YOUR life. Putting other people first is part of who you are but you need to not lose the rest of who you are for the sake of that particular trait. Balance is important. And look at it this way, "no" and "yes" are the same amount of syllables and therefore are just easy to say. Finally, you do so much around here. Make sure you are telling me when there is something I can do for you. I'm serious. <3
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