Well, I seemed to survive well enough.

Week one of school is done. Now I just have about 16 weeks left. It IS 16 weeks, right? That would be dreadful if I got it wrong.
Most of my classes seem like a lot of fun and that I will have a great time in them. There's only one that I'm a little worried about, because the teacher seems to be an absolute bore, but I think I could power through the lectures. I'm sure I'll warm up to it. The labs are kind of long and tedious, but I've never really thought following step-by-step instructions on the computer very fun, anyway.
I guess today was the, I-no-longer-have-any-settling-to-do-so-now-is-my-turn-to-be-a-bit-homesick day. Sort of. I mean, I don't exactly want to go back to Tallahassee, but I DO want someone to talk to. In Tally, I always had at least one person. Here, I don't. I mean, roommates are nice and all, but they don't know me yet. I want someone I KNOW. Face-to-face. Over a machine just isn't the same.
I can feel myself slowly turning back to the person I was about 2 years ago (nothing special, really). It took me so long to adjust to being with people, to tell friends things, to trust people, to start understanding social norms, to actually hug on the occasion without totally freaking. I don't want to return to the anti-social that I've been for so long. I know two weeks isn't a very long time, but I know I'll get comfortable not being close to anyone and then I won't make the effort anymore. It's because I know I'm not going back to Tallahassee to stay probably ever again. I'm not gone on some vacation. This isn't like the road trip I went on over the summer. I have to keep telling myself that.
I'm such a mess. I always have been. I've never really been able to communicate with people very well, because I just can't say everything that I need to say. I never clarify what I really mean. And to prove my point, I'm probably just going to move on to some other subject.
Like sleep. I'm getting tired, so I'm going to go to sleep. Hopefully I won't dream about Buffy the vampire slayer stuff.